At this phase of my life where I have many un-answered 'Whys' and somedays it feels like I am on retirement mood, more so because slowly my aggression, passion and motivation to continue to work in the current role or say to work for purely earning money and be financially independent; alongside also manage some corpus for parents etc is getting almost checked, or say, I feel it so.
Sometimes, with AI coming in picture, it feels the world may be getting more challenging for new generation to start with and I sometimes take that burden on my shoulders that possibly, I need to make space for them...by probably leaving a space I am in. Afterall they might have dreams to live and family to support too.
When I reflect on these passing thoughts, in the hindsight, it feels like the shock of loosing some of my best peers to that of current layoffs, is still lingering and as an overly vigilant individual, such safety measures or thoughts leading to that mental safety, naturally crops-up.
Alongside this emotional rollercoaster, and knowing life is short (at-least the work-life) in the current era...sometimes, I keep myself motivated by simple events that either I plan or am being blessed with and one-such day was today, I can call it A Me-Monday. Why?..
When I carry a smal box with specific Jeera-Khari biscuits, to office, to dip & have it with my ginger tea :P
When I am blessed with neighbour's and landlords who are more like my Family and pamper me with so much love and food!! Such blessings are precious to me. I missed my family and had tears when the thought deeply touched me — to know how blessed I am. Uncle aunty's presence makes me feel I am near my own parents and felt equally cared for and looked after🤞. May God bless them.
Some online shopping where one spends days and nights, searching for one or more specific products, locate them or select the one close to the choice and when it gets shipped, eventually return most of them citing - quality not upto my liking :(.
but the best part would be when we all girls (neighbour's) would sit together with three different phones, multiple online shopping platforms and drill down the specifications of a particular product or surf to the extent that all off us will get motivated to shop...irrespective of if we need anything or no...the need can be created :D
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With all this, I love my space to be able to get back to this blog, one post at a time (no matter how random or meaningless it may look or sound), to explore the depths of my emotions or sometime just make peace with them or learn from them. There are those days too, when I am the most unforgiving and will be hurting but then some or the other blessings come my way to heal me, help me find a way or at-least navigate the emotional tides.
A little part of the credit also goes to me allowing myself to flow with the day (yesterday), at a day outing with my crazy bunch of neighbours, just being kids again....having fun amidst the nature (@Pyramid Valley), playing badminton, laying on the green lawns, caressing the cows at Gaushala, enjoying some summer treats and also painting <3. My heart felt as if it has never been wounded and I am deeply grateful for that.
In fact, after returning, I attended to a long pending task of writing a note on an empty card...and just that exercise made me feel so much elated, more forgiving, free and easy-going.
So, may be a Me-sunday too :P
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Love you Tan!🫂💝
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