Ho'oponopono prayer

The 'whys' continued, and I wokeup to a fierce rain and a chill morning. 

I then did some surfing on YouTube and came across a video that talked about how a girl's repeated patterns and relationships that she chooses or attracts, are all an outcome of the deeper resonance of feelings, be it - grudges or hurt that she still carries from her bond (or lack of it) with her mother, Such is the depth of is her connection with her mother, with or without choice.

It made me reflect deeply on the course of my life and now scan every event which wounded me, through this new information.

At last, the video also guided me to do a Ho'oponopono meditation on monther to fix the same. 

I reluctantly engaged in it, thinking, 'I have come far away, and this is useless' until the repeatation of those prayer words took me back to certain moments which had my eyes filled with tears and the heart felt heavy, for missing, not recognising, or acknowledging the side of mom that was always there for me.

I wonder and ask the universe, 'Now, why this information and where do I go with it? Rather, which direction?'. The information will only leave me swinging back and forth between my past and present....so what's the use? Let me crawl at my own pace and deal with life as it comes...

Well, I knew if I stayed a little longer in my bed, I would be consumed by endless thinking, and the outcome could be undesirable and disheartening. I din't want yet another day with either a headache or puffy eyes.

I pulled myself up, started with the daily chores, planned my breakfast, and then got into some bit of stretching and warmup exercises to keep my mind at ease -- and I love that about me. 

After a soulful breakfast and the best-suited beverage for the day — steaming Filter coffee☕ — my neighbours and I chose to deal with the day a bit differently and we sat for some arts and crafts. 

And I must say, my heart felt at home for those brief moments.

What I did for myself was a bookmark that I had loved; the price of it in a store was way too high (from my perspective) so I chose to create a similar copy for myself 🐒💕 (sorry to the original creator, but deep appreciation for the creativity and simplicity)

 And...it's time to reveal :)

Right from paper cutting, giving it a feel of a notebook's page, eyelet fixing and even sketching....it all lifted up my spirits 💝🙏.

That led me to make a vision board for a dream house I would someday want to live in...with a big lawn, humble flooring like that of olden days, a swing in the open courtyard and loads of trees and a lotus pond....+++

Dreams!

-- Ty Tan & I Love you even more.🍃