When an ex-colleague sends her love and gratitude across borders ...
A handmade Crystal keychain with a humble note
When a cab-mate turns a thoughtful santa and a soundboard...and Brings a book for me to take inspiration from..
Until now; when a situation at work nudged me hard to be courageous enough to sit with my internal dialogues.
I wrote and I questioned.
I answered, and questioned them again—
All to get to the deep-seated 'Why?'
A festering sore.
At the superficial level, I thought I was competing with a colleague in the egoistic race for a promotion...
Only to realize that deep down, I was yearning for the feeling of being deserving—to be an equal with someone who abandoned me, or whom I let go.
I had masked my pain.
Felt as if I had lost face among my own people.
And I kept burying my shy self at work...
a self that felt ashamed to even be loved,
to be accepted,
or to just exist alongside someone.
A self that is deserving of momentum in life.
Deserving of sharing a dream, and building a life together.
✍️
(A relief that I was seeking came as the tears made there way out...like floods)