The weight of restraint

On days when the longing is immense,

When clouds of thoughts are blinding,

When the power to restrain is given,

When life outside of self means nothing,

When every facet of who we are is directed against us — or it appears to be so ...

What one misses the most?

A dear someone by the side;

One with whom every word, or even silence begins to make sense

अनकही साझेदारी (The unspoken conflict)

लिखना भी बहुत कुछ है,

पर मौन से, मन भरा सा है।

फूटते हैं, जस्बात सारे इस अंतर मन में,

एक द्वंद्व में...

अपने और अपनों के मध्य के इस एहसास में..

'काश' और एक 'आस' के बीच में...

शायद समझता कोई एक आपसी साझेदारी को..

तो शायद, बहता प्यार सींचता हर रिश्ते की क्यारी को!

(Expressing the exhaustion of the day and yet a deep sense of love for self)

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A much needed note to self : 

Tan, loads of love and understanding! One that you seeked from the world but it's time you show it to yourself and be fine with it...flow with that ease and acknowledgement, that gap and the efforts to fulfill it, those wounds of generational patriarchy...but wrap it in the ocean of love...Not for them but for you to walk on the timelines of change ...✍️🤗💕