Sometimes life comes to a standstill...or say it flows with a rapid pace, changing the dynamics at a speed that one cannot catch-up with and that instability sometimes throws one off balance, atleast makes me feel overwhelmed, deeply agitated.
Sometimes its just the thoughts, like:
Is it better to grieve that which is not lost but will never be mine or to be greatful that a timeline in my life's chapter allowed us to be together in mere presence, walking in parallel, fighting individual battles or paying the cost of being so involved...
A connection whose foundation was laid on seperation... While life was singing a different song..
A bond that individually started with a longing to find the missing link, beyond the bare minimum to evolution of individual selves, growing together - even as our hairs greys together too...
Sometimes it feels as if I am living in a bubble and the fact that it may burst anyday, keeps me awake at night, I panic in fear, a tender heart in me seeks and yearn for some solace, an answer or just the courage to accept life in it's whole truth...
At one moment you greive a lost loved one and while you are still healing life throws another challenge and throws you off balance... Making you question what is it that's life trying to whisper?
I know that's the way life is and we all need to find our inner compass to navigate such chaos but how to be not slaves to our emotions or when do we know that we haven't been addicted to that rythem of pain and agony, chaos and catastrophe?
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