I will be fine

Does it happen to you that you remember someone and your body experienced a sob...

Well, it happened to me... 

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Nothing broke me until I was chatting with ex- neighbour...told her that I reached back and she asked - Home ओर City 

I said : Home.

She asked if I had Food, I said yes...parceled Idlies।

I told her that I see all my books being returned and kept on table, a zero bulb fixed and loads of plants...and now I will only stay with 'our' plants...

She said yes and that she kept one book -  'Forest enchantments'....and she will finish In this lifetime...

I said - Sure (Lage raho Munna Bhai) and we both shared laughing emojis...

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Such a contrast, the outer world is full of crackers and lightworks all around me and inside the house I sit and shed and wipe my tears...

To be honest, I don't know what is making me feel this way, maybe the overthinking about tiny moments when it will sink-in that my kind friend, soul sister and my neighbour is gone now and not around anymore...

Or that how soon the time with family passed and I always leave with a vaccum in my heart and a lingering question what could have I done better for them while being there...

Or resuming work with new managers...

I don't know, I just needed a big warm bear hug and a pillor to sob...

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I will be fine...🫂

Happy Dipawali २०२६

Amidst everything, God Blessed me with yet another beautiful Deepawali....filled with Laughter, friendship, food, teasing, meeting friends, families, neighbours,a little tears and a lot of memories with family ❣️

Customery garland making, flowers from a nearby farm.

Pooja रो thaal...(I loved and enjoyed making supda .. The tiny leaf plates)

Since, I couldn't do Pooja, I thoroughly enjoyed making Rangoli and the biggest project execution challenge was dealing with these two cranky ladies who goes more cranky as the sun was setting and mosquitoes were rising 😁. I loved them all....(Not the mosquitoes!!)

Thank you, Dear God and Maa Goddesses...

I bow to you for your blessings, love and support. 

Sometimes clarity too..