While surfing the waves of thoughts from that of things that hurt, words that create discomforts, some small wins at work, experiencing tiny episodes of being in the moment, I pinned on 'Fridays'; on a Friday :)
Friday's has some charm about them and I am trying to decode that feeling. This charm has grown in the past two years; thanks to the lockdowns and work from home which collectively assured - 4 days are just perfect to immerse in work (willingly or unwillingly..ha ha).
I was taking stock of how am I feeling on this Friday and I noticed, I am effortlessly my usual self, happy and bubbly, A bit more confident while speaking in public forums (virtually). Usually in the past few instances, I panic if I have to do public speaking and after challenging myself beyond what I could take, I experience slight bleeding and muscle cramps etc (a horrifying self-imposed torture).
Also noticed, I do not experience that bottled or chocked feeling in my chest nor do I had any palpitations and I am able to breath deep, my heart is smiling. I am more accepting of life.
With this thoughts I went to the terrace and experienced bright blue sky with bundles of pearl clouds scattered.....all resonated the happiness.
I was more attentive of my surroundings and thanked the tallest tree around me for being there, welcoming and hosting so many beautiful birds for me, growing so tall in all these years and being my constant in all weathers.
Not just this, I also found a lovely track (Xavier Rudd - Stoney Creek (Official Music Video) and after a long time it felt like music to the soul and even the video took me back to one of my dreams, to learn skateboarding <3. Some day I will.....
I am willing and excited to take baby steps to reform ...bring a new introduction to myself, allow myself to be a more explorative soul and being. I learned - One can love and can still walk away. The ease in my body made me hear myself more - learned I don't know how to distinguish between good or bad 'In love' and I willingly flow with what is my 'now'.
I noticed that at times I want to do so many things, from travel to painting, to listening to dancing, to run, to walk, to cook and to experience and in that rush I forget about the most important thing - the ease & Effortlessness of life. Of forgiving myself for not being on myown side, my own cheerleader :)
Nevertheless, Coming back to the decoding part...I really don't know what are the contributing factors to this Friday-charm, but somewhere I know it is all with the pschycological balance at work and life. And now one thing I want to do is create such "Charming Friday Moments" in my everyday.
Q. How do I plan to do so?
A. Creating cal. blocks of - Dolce far niente. An italian saying & a soul-expanding celebration of doing nothing <3. Just writing about it makes me feel super excited.
B. Make a note and drop habits that aren't helping me in creating this ease for myself.
B. Make a note and drop habits that aren't helping me in creating this ease for myself.
Eg. Signing-up for too many things at work. Feeling guilty of having fun at work or even outside work
C. Cultivate the understanding of Less is more. Be it life, Dreams or Passions.
Thanks all to my urge. I am hungry now and waiting for a cake that I odered.
And shhhhh....tomorrow I am on Vista Dome <3
