The previlege of a conversation

(Days when our meetings have become a reare occurance and his days mostly are spent at hospitals attending to his ailing mother (battling C))

During one sure rare meeting at a cafe,

Me: how are you?
He (with reddish, tired, sleep deprived eyes and a forced smile) : I am doing okie.... Say something else..

Me: instantly like a radio, throwing out all the events of my life, my work, new learnings, my family, travels etc endlessly....(As if In every bit of my being even though being detached, still feels a deep sense and need of care for the other and wishes that possibly any of these banter could be a easy distraction for him in some way possible)

I held his hand, pressed his palms assuring all will be well..

He (Opening up): seeing both parents suffer one after the other has its own toll...

Me: Nodding in agreement..

After a comfortable Pause...

Me: What is your relationship with relations 

He: Frankly, I don't know...I am still learning...one of my PLR revealed that I was a monk and a warrior...

And in this life I have never had anyone in my life for that long. 

...

Except for you.

Me (experiencing a deep sense of ease and gratitude for his honesty, rawness and surrender): Then why is it that I am still there, what role I am here to play?

He: I don't know, but what I belive is it's something from the past, Dad had said that a girl from north would be a big pillar of support.....

Me: Hmm....I am glad you are aware and true to yourself because all the way on my ride from home to the cafe, I was wondering about that Question.

Our conversation went on for another few mins over a herbal tea...

.....

What I was surprised with - was the fact that I felt so much at ease in my being, no judgement, no feeling of insecurity, no rush to find my ground or where I belong, probably I have accepted my life's course...as it. 

I have lived or choosen to live numerous such battles with him thru his lifetime and somewhere it exhausted me too, deprived me of a partnership, but every event was teaching me something more deeper.

It's a previlege for the people in any relationship where it grows from Nothing to Something to Nothing Again, consciously.

And it is to me - a service; to be the only witness of greatness unfolding, seeing a Man in control of his senses, a devoted Son, a friend in need, a safety net, a fearless being...and sometimes one who also needs to be reminded that they are loved, cared for, thought of, respected and that they deserve ease and can choose one.