Can we start again?

In a recent newsletter by James Clear, he wrote : 

"With a bow and arrow, you aim before you shoot. But in most areas of life, aiming is something you can do throughout the process.

You can always adjust: your career path, your business strategy, your relationships, your workout program, your plans for next Wednesday. It's all adjustable along the way.

So, pick a direction and get moving. Once you start, you learn along the way and there are plenty of opportunities to refine your plan."

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These words made so much sense to me and and it not just instilled an awareness - that, how often we forget this simple basic possibility but also lightened the heaviness I carry in my heart.

 Deep down this whole concept, I believe there is a a foundation of self forgiveness and care. Ease is what it brings to mind and that gets translated to actions and overall in life.

Many a times or say much of my life, I have spent dwindling back and forth between my past and fear of future....May be most of us do so. But I isolated myself and thinking it's safe and I can think and take decisions in that isolation but what I never realized was, I was delaying the process of taking decisions in various aspects of my life, I was loathing on self pity that It's my karmas and I need to endure (for something that never aligned with the heart) or overdid and got deeply attached to things and people that felt safe. 

Fast forward to my today, I challenged myself to invest in me, maybe to break a monotony or focus on something that feels a natural flow for my being, I enrolled for career sessions that felt as if they were designed for me and were speaking to me deeply. No denying there is a lot of work involved in it and at times it feels consuming, boring but never disheartening and that alone kept me going. I had to realign my priorities over and over, I had to manage my emotions when time called for it and aligned my actions too, this was the most difficult part for a person like me who has never felt the need for that regulation.

I am not sure where will life lead me from here but all these exercises, experiences have allowed me to naturally open up to life a little bit more, it doesn't feel like a effort but more like graceful transition, it has helped me expand my outlook for life.

That said, it's very easy to slip back into old patterns without even realising it but then one relies on systems - tested, proven and sustaining.

That's all. The heart was longing to sit with self and talk thru it and externalize it out here. ✍️.

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Thank you, Tan.