Navigating my usually unusual days...I was in my new office building, on the last Thursday. I met someone new in cab and we spoke a good deal about many things around work, culture, thinking, leisure etc and at last I mentioned to that colleague about one of my office friend (PT) who has started a business and doing really well.
We reached office and I connected those two over chat.
I hadn't met PT for almost an year and a few times when I thought I will connect,one of us got busy and at times I also got tangled in the thoughts that probably he doesn't want to connect, so I didn't ask him anything, even though I was in the same building as his.
After breakfast, I sat to start with my tasks list and I get a response from:
PT: are you in building A?,
Me: Yes.
PT: shall we meet for coffee?
Me: not able to believe, if he is really asking it :), I took a few deep breaths and said... Okie. Where?
PT: level 1.
Me: starting in a bit, from level 8.
.....fast fwd. We chatted for a good long 30 mins about him, his family life, business, his new team, coffee, about my adventures, etc and around 9:30 am, I asked if we shall leave....
Just then I saw a car passing by at the reception and I asked him which is it? Merc?... BMW?
I kind of get a weird thrill seeing beautiful cars... Especially if it's a BMW etc
PT: we would need 10 mins more. Let's go ...
We Stepped down into the main hall and exited the building...
PT: you have no idea what's coming your way!
Me: Guaging that we were walking towards parking... I shockingly asked- is it a car!!! ? Did you buy new one??
PT: Yes! And I will take you for a short ride within campus...
... And to my surprise, it was BYD!!!!
Never in my life I would have guessed the experience that followed... and definately not the gut popping thrill and excitement, just from the basement ramp up ...OMG! It was nothing short of a sports car!!!
And then he took it on road and explained me all the tech features, engine, tyres etc...
Apart from the euphoria, I was deeply touched by his kind gesture of giving me a ride....I felt so happy and deeply greatful 🥲.🙏
Me: if you would have told me this, I would have not got my office laptop or work to work, today!!😅
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Movie with neighbours: Su from So
My neighbour was persistent in asking me to join them for a comedy movie... (In Kannada though)...
So Wednesday, I started early from work to be back home by 3pm, rest for a bit and then, attend to some pending work and head out for 4:50 pm show.
While enroute, I was feeling the uneasiness of going with them..a couple and moreover realized that I have had enjoyed most of my movie with a friend who I have kind of disconnected from and maintaining only biz related connect....
I could identify the root of my uneasiness and in such cases, I usually procrastinate..
I told my Neighbour's to book their seats... One that they got as complimentary from using a credit card. My suggestion was to book two seats with one empty in between so that we can grab a single ticket at the cinemas directly.
They booked H3 & 5 and told me to take 4.
When we went to the cinema, all seats, even the middle one 4 was taken, leaving me with the only seat on extreme end of the same row. I took that but felt guilty of splitting the couple... So asked them to negotiate with the neighbours in the next seat and it turns out they can sit together as the other family was three people but I cannot be accommodated.
With some relief that they got seats together, I went to eat my early dinner and then watched the whole movie alone/ with rest of the crowd from H18!! 🤣 And the movie was superb!!! I loved it!
I think when experiencing seperation anxiety from that of no more having a friend by my side, I had to remind myself that- it's for his and my own Good + the uneasiness and discomfort is normal and I could sail thru...
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Day before, at night, I slept with deeper yearning for finding ease and solace from my growing anxiety... and to my surprise
Yesterday morning, I had a very clear dream with very distinct imagery - people, spaces etc. The highlight was hearing "close the curtain of Bhairav nath ji" (pull the curtains close for the Lord Bhairavnath)....
Upon waking up, I bowed to the rising sun and the bright sky, from my window and went back to bed searching for meanings or interpretations for my dream.
I also reached out to one very religious individual who is into cow breeding and welfare and he mentioned that Lord Bhairava represents wish fulfillment.
I felt very light in my heart about all this. Wokeup, took shower and searched for a few nearby Bhairavnath temple and found three. I locked on Kala Bhairava temple which was just 6 mins ride from my home.
But by the time I finished breakfast (which was also an offering to The Lord, Halwa), and my neighbour and I got ready, it was 11 am, time for the temple to be closed for noon hours.
I knew in my heart that it's ok. I then did some laundry, cooking etc and whole day there was no power and the neighbours has also gone out. My phone, laptop batteries, induction was down due to power outage.
Life felt so unbearably quite and It was getting cloudy. I decide to lit the evening lamp and walk up to the nearby lake temple, just the sight of Lake uplifts my being and my senses.
And asa I reached their, after a 10 mins walk, I headed for Darshan and when I was stepping out, it started to rain fiercely, I took my umbrella and stood near the lake seeing the Twilight hour, the formation and disappearance of drops on the lake surface and the whole foggy, misty layer formed all across the lake bed....
The rains were nothing that I had seen this season and I felt deeply happy, but it was also chilling with winds and water on my bottom palazo.
I went back inside the temple and did an hour of Japa on Bhairavnath by counting on fingers...but after a while I lost the count of it. I was hungry, feeling tired and cold too.... probably low on hemoglobin.
Inside the temple, there was a family of two baby daughters, both the daughters were super cute, the elder one took some space in the back of the temple hall and started practicing here dance to the time of the devotional song that was being played and the younger one was busy playing and adoring father or the mom and these two would be taking selfies, else the younger one was busy observing an Ant moving on the marble floor and lovingly calling it with palm gesture, for it to come on her palm.
I loved that sight and thanked God for protecting me.
Alongside, on the other side of the hall, the Swami's were decorating the idols were new vesthi and sarees....it was Vaikuntha Vallabha temple. And I thoroughly enjoyed the whole experience.
After an hour, when rains reduced, I collected my umbrella and stepped out. One aunty who was also arranging the deity sarees joined and I offered her my umbrella and dropped her to her home on my way.
And rest of the lanes, I navigated on my own, at times with a wired palpitations... May be due to fear of isolated dark patch of roads or at curved ends of a lane where I could hear the gutter water gushing out....as if jog falls but with a very bad smell. Or it was me walking without any phone or cash in hand after decades...
On my way, I stopped at a Mangalore store and purchased some sweet and asked the owner for credit till I reach home as phone is on charge and no power since morning. He agreed.
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Today morning, I wokeup lazily and decided to first visit temple without any food, I got ready by 10.30am and started with navigation on phone.
I reached there and surprisingly, there where three beautiful temples - Kala Bhairava, Ayyappa Swami and Lord Ganesha.
I asked someone where to buy puja samagri from? And he pointed me to a lady with a cart selling fruits, rice packs, ash guard, dhatura (favourite flower of Shani), oils etc
I asked her to provide me with a pack to offer to Lord Kala Bhairava and she gave me banana, flowers, betel nut and leaves, rice pack, an oil pack, one green flower and some karpur, I guess.
I bowed to Ayyappa Swami deity from outside as the vendor lady was standing right outside of the that temple. I then headed to the temple on my left and what I saw made me believe the presence of Lord.
There were three big street dogs, all sleeping peacefully at the entrance, in a straight line leading upto the temple and one on the main door mat. And since, dog is the vehicle for the lord...I knew that the lord was there and his vahan sleeping with such ease. That sight made my day and finally the Swami took the garland and offered it to the crown of the junior deity and I felt happy 😊.
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After returning back home, I played two hours with my neighbour kid, downstairs and later he came along for painting... And I thoroughly enjoyed that time and our innocent chit chats and laughter. We painted, decorated with cut mirrors, did some snacking and then played Jenga:😄. It was so close to noon but for that moment, all my time related senses where away on a vacation and I was loving the joy and ease and blessing of such wonderful souls around me.
He even took one of my old finger ring and his approach was: you have three on your hand, can you give me one??..(all innocent gibberish kannada, a pleasure :p)
And I said, my mom will scold me but I can give you another and he happily agreed.
I was loving his innocent and non-judgmental approach for jewellery... Including an anklet :).
I loved laughing with him... Like kids again whenever the jenga bricks crashed.
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Thank you God for a beautiful day and the most productive too.
🦚💝
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