Switching contexts between team outing planning, personal goals for February or having goals to not having any, performance ratings at work and how I associate myself to it, hearing about a friend's father being at his death bed and how at every sign of health deterioration a new accessories being added on his physical body yet there is nothing that could bring ease, except death. Seeing that friend also deal with family betrayals, issues of miss-trust and run a business by pulling every mili-meter of emotional and physical string together to enable the mind to perform and navigate each moment as a businessman, a son, a vendor, a friend, a father and a brother....makes me reflect at the Big picture of demanding life.
On such life path, sustaining each day, as it comes becomes an auto pilot, and acts as the foundation with basics such as a Morning greetings with a thoughtful emoji of gratitude 🙏✍️, care💝🤗 and affection🌸 works like the ray of hope.
There came a point when such chaotic nature of events around and thoughts within me, established me in a zone which seemed as if I was emotionally floating i.e. not soaking-up anything rather just being, listening, seeing, going along....no baggages held. And in one such moment, over a charged-up discussion that involved intense planning for an upcoming event, I paused, paused to check-in with self and the immense peace that I felt in the awareness of that moment and how the un-obstruct flow of life that is seeping thru every pore of such awareness or unawareness drew my attention towards it; in the form of incoming and outgoing breath. I asked the other person in call, how strange is this time!
And immediately comes an answer, Yes! I knooow...
Remembering it all, I started to think of my own journey, as an individual, a sensitive girl, one who din't know what it was to fail in life, to loose confidence, to face the self and the most difficult or it all to be forgiving to self and accept.
I won't say I am over it all but I am better and somedays I sob and question myself but days like today with those few moments of awareness, I am at ease.
And that reminded me of Kohli who played one of his best matches and won it too, inspite of it being the day when he lost his Dad.
To me, it feels like the more we begin to navigate our emotional limitations, the more we understand life and the more we create flow of life 💝 ✍️.
Ty and tc love (tan)
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