The best therapy...

Late evening, today, after I had taken a hot shower, I wondered what do I do. There was a weired jitter I was experiencing and trying to fight.

Then I sat down on the yoga mat and placed a cushion too for the comfort. I have been thinking of learning more about scarcity mindset and how to heal it consciously, even knowing that it roots from the generations before me and may not completely be healed...

I watched two videos on the topic and something from those videos inspired me to declutter (one of the task for this weekend), let go of all that I haven't been using or consuming in anyway, restrict or clear all that I hoard.

In that high of being inspired, I wanted to allow and open my heart to the feeling of bliss and joy and let go all the unwanted feelings, thoughts, patterns, behaviours, experiences I am calling that aren't serving me in anyway, including even those dresses that I am holding on to (my love for pure cotton fabrics and beautiful sowing 😊). In a way, clean-up every nook and corner of my pschycial, concious and unconscious states of being and my surroundings.

I was feeling a deep sense of calm, as if a new life has been infused, a purpose to look forward to and one that resonates with me - to let go the old and welcome the new. 

I started with journaling the gratitude list which took me on a quick tour of various events, things, people, wisdom, Mother earth, her guidance, myself, my family and all the Love.

Then I wrote forgiveness. Primarily to myself for all that I go thru and suffer with and avoid or deny (the joy or abundance ...).

I began to feel a bit better and lighter in my heart, more rejuvenated. I then moved on to clear my dressing drawer, home-office table and few of those artificial jewelleries, one tyat I no longer use. 

After a great millet dinner from a nearby etary and walk back home, I started the tasks with Alexa in the background playing some soothing old Bollywood songs which later changed to bhajans🙄. Songs kept my momentum and motivation up.

While cleaning the desk, I came across an old journal from 2021 and the dreams of having seven resorts in seven different continents providing Heal Y Your Life sessions to all. It also had the theme of that year i.e. a year of Yes (commenced on 10th June 2021),

I also cleared all the MBA books that I have had latched on to, for so long, thinking I will read them one day. There was also these premium magazines  Robb Report. The magazine covered articles and beautiful pictures of luxury cars like Rolls Royce, Mansions across globe and some of those vintage bikes and watches and other luxury resort Properties and lifestyles. The pictures stood as a reminder for my vision board and for a very long time I had the Red RR pic kept at my desk to feel great about such beauty tyat exists and may someday be mine to experience ❣️🤞. I checked in my heart, if I am ok and my consciousness looked at me as said... "Already xx years old...how long will you even live to carry this extra baggage and space from your mind and surroundings?? Please let go! Make space for things that matter to you in your now - journaling, calligraphy, clay work and greeting cards! that is where you are more alive.

At once I segregated all the other stuff to discard or give away. I looked at them all like a lost beloved

who would look the other knowing this would probably be the last meet and a final goodbye.

In my heart I thanked each of these pieces i.e my lipstick, hair band, colorful hair clutches, those magazines, notpad, few immitation jewellaries etc., packed them all and made two packages, one for the raddhi vala (trash Man) and another for the vegetable vendor's daughter. 

I did want to clear of a lot of old clothes too but I wanted to be thoughtful of my own sentiments as well. Take one thing at a time and be easy....things will eventually happen and I should be in a position to make them happen with ease.

Indeed a best therepy! - clear and make space, do more of what brings Joy and ease, have grace and faith. Gratitude will flow...