I tried hard to catch a glimpse, to click one pic for myself, by peeping hard thru the tall oak trees, thru the high-rise concrete jungle, amidst the hide and seek of metro pillars, passing by or the parallel moving traffic....all while sitting inside my office cab.
And just when I thought I got that one shot I longed for, the clouds played funny and engulfed the massive bright sun...making me question myself - 'was the sun even there? Or was I day dreaming? Or did the car change it's course?. To me atleast the car appeared to be moving northwards, thru and thru...
Then, at a perspective, I looked up at the vast clear sky, lit like as if there has been smoke and fire but not a wild one...a softer warm one like that of winter mornings...
The tall buildings created a vivid contrast against the bright sky making the view more mystical with an emotion of celebration.
I could take a few snaps from inside of the moving car but when I actually checked the photo gallery, I smiled at myself and told the sun...I lost it, you won this game.
Remembering that chase is not that leads to a win, but staying put, may...
And I waited for that perfect moment where the traffic light would turn red, without any clutter of other lorries or heavy motor vehicle or any of those tall hefty metro pillars, blocking my view. The wait was too long and I gave up.
Onto my left, at a height, the sun's reflection on those tall glass buildings was moving as effortlessly as any fluid which was on the same course as ours, morphing its appearance from that of a bright orange-yellow disc with blurred edges, to that of a folded paper circle, stuck at a elevated edge of those buildings, to somewhat like pieces of a pie arranged in a circle with one piece missing or shining with such luminous energy that the illusion (reflection) turned into a delusion. It was a mesmerizing sight and I told sun - I know you are still in the game, nudging me with your static yet moving presence.
Amidst all this, I found myself switching between my blog window and the open camera window, on my phone. With the twist and turns on the drive way, I was constantly reminded of the bright sun's direction and presence, those bright rays shifting and falling with its warm presence - either from back glass sheild of the car onto my shoulders then changing directions as we move, taking a quick stop on my lap, to appearing between my fingers and spread around the palm where I held my phone while I was typing. It then moved to my forehead to plant a warm kiss and then completely gone missing.
Just then, the car ramped-up on a flyover and I was more confident now, as I would be able to end this chase with a delightful photo click but what I overlooked was - time was ticking too, the sun that appeared like a soft woolen ball in the early morning hours of my drive to work was slowly and eventually turning to shine to it's full glory and the form I was chasing was my own limitations of perception.
At a point, the whole fun turned into a deeper and moving realisation and I rested my hands on my lap, sinking in to feel the feelings and look up and just breath. In that transitory moment, I see the car taking a slight curvy turn such that the sun shifted from that of the right window to the one on my left...it was a sweet meet and greet, without the need to chase or any back and forth of thoughts. Sun's momentary presence and shine fell on my face and the warmth filled my heart with a deep light-heartedness and I concluded the chase by continuing to move in the direction of my office :)
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