Let Go and Let be

I wrote and wrote! Wrote about my worries, my feelings, my questions and confusions, feelings of longing and awareness, of how I helped myself to deal with the anxiety after My naani's comments and call, my work related situation, my family, parents, brother, the things I could accomplish during my weekend and everything that was there in my head and just before getting into the bed and also while I was on the last page of that notebook...which held me and my past years...

I bid adieu with a greatful heart. I also started a new one that I had picked up sometime last year when one of the stationary shopkeeper dint had change and I love buying stationary.. especially my favourite Renoylds pens 😍. That's different that the company stopped making refills and I am at the verge of hoarding them to that extent that it last my lifetime...:)

It was 11.11 pm of 11.01 (Jan) and something felt magical about it all. I had shifted slightly 

In the new book, I wrote about all that I need to work on or practice or want them to be as reminders...and it all felt good. 

I can surely say I have shifted from being a person of habit to a person of concious choices...may be a bit percentage but yes, I feel that shift.

This is also a junction point, be it age, others around me, the family's dynamics or even work life...I am aware there will be a lot to let go and let be or be more open to new experiences of life...which at times use to scare me but I think I am better off now. 

A kind of unrushed feeling has sinked in and I welcome it. 

Looking at the past year, the amount of travels I have done, visited family and friends, challenged myself to step out of comfort zone, to learn, to face my fears, to also acknowledge my needs and desires and keep myself in check and not abandon; has helped me clear a certain pre conditioned beliefs in me even the traces of other traumas from relationships with unavailables...

I now know to pause and reflect. I now know to not to ignore myself and I now Let Go without holding back and I let me be...

Thank you to everyone and everything that came together to make this happen for me. I know it's a pretty long journey but I also know it's My Journey and It better be a 'Story lived Greatly' 💖.

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Much love Tan!