Yup, like any year that begins at some point and ends at some, I am realising the ends become more dearer and is celebrated. I wonder if this is the case with our lives too?...that when we are aware of the end we become more conscious of the life that remains, the existence and choose the only choice we have - to live while it lasts.
Resonating with this theme, I have had a very purposeful last one week with lot of prioritising self, journaling, having meaningful deep conversations etc. Today, at office having a great two hours talk with a friend on all topics of life i.e. Finances, advocacy for self, personal learnings and challanges, way forward etc, making a doodle, having a wonderful evening, meeting an ex-colleague / friend after many years ...or say first time after I left that company we worked together at. Lot of chit-chat, dinner and bye-byes. (Highlight: my friend brought me home-made agra ka petha... winter melon, which he prepared & such blessings are so rare✍️💝🥰)
Later, I walked into a beautiful cafe which I had always been wanting to go....It was effortlessly my own company, I went-in with, ordered my hot chocolate cup and read a beautiful book - how to make a house a home. I sensed that I am at ease with myself for no specific reason.
May be, I am at a junction of my life where I don't know what tomorrow holds for me but I am also aware that today will never come back so I might as well be. It has taken me efforts to reach to this stage i.e. lot of reading, analysis, dark days, days I would rant and vent continuously, days when only journaling would pull me out, and days when I would be introduced to the magic of life which appears when one tried to support and help themselves. Life rewards us in ways where it helps us break our false beliefs or patterns that no longer serves us, it makes time for us to step back and rest, it brings people who are courageous enough to stand by you when you yourself don't, it sends you a random call or message from a friend that says 'lets connect', it gives you dreams to hope for, it gives you opportunities to see smiling faces and sparkling eyes of your loved ones showing joy and your chance to reciprocate, it gives you a book and sends message thru winds which speaks to only you and meets you where you are in your life.....
Do we take a pause, reflect and cherish that?
Do we open doors to new perspectives of life and seeing ourselves without the judgement of anyone?...forgiving ourselves and show a little more effort in caring for and loving our self?
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