Before it's - next day. I wanted to write a love letter to myself. This thought sounded too kind for me to muster the courage to accept it.
A few thoughts formed in mind and disappeared soon enough; as it started to feel overwhelming.
Well, I would still want to write whatever minimal I can - to that limitless spirit, that heart of an ocean, smile that's sunshine that instill hope, know that I acknowledge that your journey hasn't been the usual one, you trodden on paths you thought where yours at every step, your encounter with your own truth and reality made you judge yourself and get critical, ease or comfort where far off and you were all by yourself in it!, Pushing hard to carry on with each passing day, forgetting to acknowledge your own needs and purpose. Navigating each uncertain moment, day, weeks, months and years became synonym to you.
But you took it all with the willingness to honour life with all that you could, with weaving the journey thru moments and friendships that brought joy and acted as an anchor. You continue to meet people with same kindness and love that they deserved, you held on to your Level of hope, even when you were shattered knowing that your own folks never deeply understood you.
Juggling many things, You do regret that your actions caused hurt to your own folks but acknowledge - afterall you are a human and cannot get good to all at all times.
Seems like the remainder of life wouldn't be enough to pour all that I feel for you but I know you are tired and need to rest and hence, I wrap-up with love and only love to illuminate your being. Enough forgiveness to allow healing, ample moments of deep felt gratitude and bliss. Loads of love, Tanu.
Takecare.
P.s. may this letter serve you like a warm hug, anytime you get back to it.
