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Monday, January 22, 2024

The problem is never "Love"

The problem is never Love, rather it is the faith and trust - on one's own self!

In times of dilemma, doubt or isolation ...it's never a question of - am I loved or do I feel the love for the other...?. The depth lies a step further....do I trust the piousness of 'the emotion of love that I feel?'. Does that gives me a confidence in my life or does it makes me feel broken, shattered and hopeless? Does it gives me strength drawn from an invisible source of faith to carry-on with the life and in the knowing that - I am being taken care off and that it's all in the best interest of all.


I see, it is an act of giving...giving the precious time and attention; may be to self or the other partner or a dear one in family or friends.

Never will it be easy or a smooth ride and it will test the roots of our patience but in return it will peel off the unwanted and let the spirit shine, the energy and light that the heart carries will illuminate our being and world around us.


It is also an act of endless forgiveness which starts from one's own self. The dust of guilt that we let settle-in on our identities and hearts, which then interferes with our natural course of beliefs, actions or thoughts clouds the purity and misguides us.


Another factor is that of Ego and wall that we build with it - against the 'self acceptance' and which dictates the voice in our heads! That, we cannot be accepting of our own flaws and shortcomings as if it's a crime or will make you loose your power, that we do fear welcoming Goodness in our lives, that it will create a vacuum and what will happen to the habitual chase that has so far kept us busy with a sense of purpose and false fulfillment...


And lastly, we all get attached to the experience of love, especially when it is outwardly fulfilled and it keeps us intact in big picture of life like any another piece of a jigsaw puzzle - unique, important in its order, placement and proximity. Let the faith be bigger than our doubts and let the freedom to flow with life be the mantra which guides the path ahead.


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P.s. - Jai Siya Ram!



Thursday, January 11, 2024

My heart ached at every happiness that came my way...

My heart ached at every happiness that came my way...

'My 1st ever offical US trip getting thru...'


I looked back to see if I have anyone to share these...


Held back bubbling tears, chocked but choose happy 'to be'...



Checked the chat window a thousand times to feel what it feels to have the conversations while we are alive...but active none.



My heart ached; not with the mistakes I made....The second bite of meat I ate....


My heart ached when I looked back, to see if I would be soothed by the words- shit happens...it's ok.. forget it and move on..

But heard none...




My heart ached; when I stepped at those royal steps....(The Leela palace)


How a girl from a small town who was so scared of sophistication and considered herself a misfit


But she never had to look back coz a voice was always had her back, assuring - she has all that it takes!

But saw no-one...



A room full of people were cheering for me and I stood there in disbelief.....

In the realisation of 'how far I have come'...or was it the escape I found in dedication at work.


My heart ached, flood gates of tears now open...I gave-up hiding, fighting, escaping ...knowing my heart wasn't home.


My heart ached  at every happiness that came my way...