Out with the Old In with the New

I forgot that the online session was due for today 5pm and for some reason, In my mind it was tomorrow 5pm.

Luckily, the host had sent a reminder whatsapp message and all things perfectly aligned...eg. the bike servicing was done and the mechanic dropped it home while I was in the session, the malfunctioning tubelight was checked and fixed by the ex-BESCOM employee...my flat owner uncle, he even closed the rental agreement signing and printing tasks, in absence of cooking gas and other eateries (being Sunday off), the food...say Linner was delivered around four in the evening ..right and hour before the session began :).

This session - Out with the old and in with the new is a reflection exercise by the way of journaling and meditation and for me this is the third time I am doing. The host (Suma Verghese - Writer, author, ex-editor of life positive) holds this workshop in the last week or a week before last, of December, every year.

The whole exercise is like a gift one rewards oneself with! It helps make peace with once life, it's path, the lessons learnt or yet to be and lay a foundation for a better tomorrow, a tomorrow seeded with more concious choices and  healthy intentions.

Personally, I always look forward to these sessions and the timing of it and meeting people who have healed themselves from many life threatening diseases, been with the self more and prioritized themselves by putting the right effort and sculpting the life desired is not small feat and is very inspiring and it instil the faith that Yes, you can do it all! To trust the self and working towards the goals listed.

I believe and also shared with the host that these activities and sessions laid the foundation for me to nurture journaling, to dwell deeper in my own truth and be unapologetic about the failures or even having fun in the process of life's journey.

I am immensely greatful for this blissful day and everything that worked in my favour and for the greater goodness.

Thank you. Tc Tan 💞🤗

Count your blessings and keep going

 I know there is no destination...but one has to still keep going.

And knowing I am feeling terribly low and emotional....would want to take a few moment to count my blessings and just be:

1. Papa's call and his laughter filled greetings, full of life (🤞) whenever he calls me. he asked why am I sounding low and I said I was reading a book and probably got too involved in it.
2.  Long pending things getting closer to completion with right resources and people :house painting, bike servicing, rental agreement renewal, Saree blouse stitching, collecting ironed clothes etc 
3. Financial ease to facilitate above all (pt.2)
4. A moving body and a fully functional brain which is working in sync and enabling me to navigate each day with the proper choices, wisdom to stay mum when emotions are loudest and prioritize people I love and healthy relationships.
5. Genuine people I am meeting, be the tax consultant who humbly offered to guide me with my taxes and said "will only take fees if I can help with saving any taxes for you." I offered to help him get client if anyone needs consultation, owner uncle - who came along to get the stamp paper from bank, helped with cash (i only had online payment option enabled) and closing the rental agreement typing etc, the iron shop uncle who is kind and so caring, cooks at SBU mess who welcome me and feed me food with so much love and care and to match my liking... especially on a day when the cooking gas got over.
6. Sister like friend and neighbour who cares for me beyond what is asked of her, she reads my. Mind and my feelings without me speaking a single word. I don't know what past connection we have....and how we are twined together.
7. A friend who gives me the comfort of a family away from family, with whom I can  be my whole self, with confidence and ease...either the ugliest or bitter version or the most caring and loving one. And after each fight or hard conversations or days that I am unforgiving to myself, I am reminded, it's a new day and that I am not being judged for anything.
8. Tear ducts that help me ease off by shedding some tears in the lonliest or the most isolated of times.
9. The vast open sky that helps me clear my mind, when I have no-one around to turn to..
10. The willingness to be curious and creative in smallest of ways to nurture and love life and to make space for acceptance. ❣️✍️
11. The books that gives me purpose and a reason to look forward to each day or hour...
12. Ginger tea (dint get one today and probably that's why I am missing it more)
13. Settings boundaries...when a family member was being unreasonable and was loud, I had to set things right there and I hope I dint hurt the other.
14. Possibilities and hope...
15. Self hug 🫂 and an assurance that all will be well.